30 minutes into my “Fresh Start” I realized what I had just done.
I wanted a fresh start and within the last 4 months of 2017, I have kept my focus on keeping my peace, Fresh starts, and overall happiness.
I thought it would be the perfect time to also revamp my entire blog look and website which also caused me to delete all 200 blogs from the last 2 years.
My journey, my growth all gone I mean technically I have the memories, the pain, and everything but not going back to re-read it online kinda hurt.
So here is to my fresh start and a little journey on memory lane.
How did I get here?
3 important men molded a lot of my ideas on why I date the way I do and also taught me some valuable lessons. These learning lessons spanned over the course of 11 years. I know, it took me 11 years to find myself and when I walked away from the last relationship I honestly still had not “found myself .that’s kinda sad huh? It’s not everyone’s story and the journey will always be different I just wish I had woke up earlier with a few of them. As I reflect, all the signs were there for me to walk away but I honestly didn’t value myself enough to do that. Never did I imagine that my girlfriends would be calling me the”BLOCK QUEEN” “The No ma’am”. I went from questioning my worth to knowing exactly what I wanted and realizing I deserved that and more.
Again this took me 11 years to manifest this, trial and error, and lots of dates lol. I realized that EX #1 lesson was that I wanted stability I can stand on my own two feet and I need him to do the same and have a work ethic. I also would want him to be faithful and secure within himself. EX # 2 taught me that I will not settle and accept mediocrity from a man. I will not allow a man to hit me and drown in his struggle love. EX # 3 taught me it was very important to have a man confident within himself it is really exhausting to tell a man how amazing he is and building him up always and he finds every moment to bring you down. I also learned that I will never go half on bills lol.
The crazy dating stories I have I could put them in a book but they also taught me a whole list of things :
- Take your time no need to rush.
- trust your gut and ask questions.
- do not go with the flow.
- stand your ground on your standards.
- if he treats you bad stop making excuses
- do not give girlfriend/wife benefits to a stranger.
- bare minimum effort from him does not mean give him your all.
- never put your eggs in a basket until you are in a relationship date and be merry.
- Everything that looks good ain’t always good protect yourself and research.
- Inconsistency is also a decision too.