So 3 weeks as passed since a lot of the mess that transpired we have now started therapy back again pushed forward and moved in together and began to focus on the future.I am not going to lie I am insecure as hell right now at this moment because I am rebuilding trust in someone that has not one time not twice but this will be the third time he has me not trusting him and throwing a rock in our relationship.
Again you are reading this blog a year after this has occurred I am documenting this event but also don’t want the feelings to be so angry and deepened at him that by the time this releases I have walked away from this energy or he has actually manifested himself into what he knows he should be. currently, at the moment all is well considering that does not mean another storm will not brew just means that currently with therapy we have managed to get through this particular moment. So during therapy, there was a lot of unpacking on both sides mostly with him :
He has never done anything for himself successful by his self anything that he has had was given to him y his family
or off the back of a woman, he was in a relationship with.
He did not have a relationship with his children and he spoke about wanting to have one with them but was corrected several times by the therapists that he has to be accountable and make the proper moves to remain active in their life and not during times that he wants to (birthdays ,holidays)
he was angry about his father not being there for him and didn’t understand the impact and the cycle he was creating with his daughters
He spent money on electronics and failed to care for his life things and when this was mentioned became defensive an pointed the finger at me about buying things (he almost sounded jealous it was sad)
at this point when he came back he had some skin condition that was now spreading like wildfire all over his body and within weeks was spreading to his dick . we were not having sex due to two reason one he was scrapping his dick all on my IUD and toss on to that the Skin condition . (the therapist suggested him to see a doctor)
he eventually went to the doctor he has psoriasis and at our next session the topic was how he got the medication and was refusing to bathe and refusing to put the medication on.
also, finding out the the woman lied about her pregnancy during our session made for an interesting week. She wanted to get back together and lied about the baby when he told her to come back with the details to confirm she was actually pregnant and that he was not leaving me to be with her the truth came out and then she was no longer interested in him. Mind you this was something else that had to be discussed because this man literally put a rock in what we had to run to her for it to all be a lie so I’m questioning your decisions sir at this point. He is basically in true man form wanting me to forget it all and move forward in life and not mention it and up until the therapy session it wasn’t in the past it was still fresh i also explained how hard it was to move past something just to have you do the exact same thing again with the same person .
