So here we are again another year and another post lol.
again this blog was drafted 12/7/2020 and I am yet again providing a timeline with folks I am dating.

This story goes back to before Nate and when I first started dating in Texas in 2015 I linked with The Sigma on every dating site ( I was literally on every dating site every single one lol) we would chat/exchange numbers he would ghost or I would ghost it varied. Fast Forward, a year later we finally went on a date and this went on about 3 months till I wanted to date other people as well as him, only to be met with him thinking I wanted a relationship with him  and he proceeded  to freak out and go ghost lol

until a year later he came back conversation remained at surface level , he went then on and got married

I went on to get in a relationship. when both of our relationships ended we met again in 2019 and remained friends the fire with Nate was starting with a slow burn until it erupted in October  2020 he was there for me.

I felt after Marcus I needed a break because the last time I was single  I was 11.

I remained mentally healthy throughout the Nate relationship so when it ended  I was ok with doing so and moving on, I considered him a friend and waited until I was in a better mental headspace to even try dating. The first month was a lot of unpacking of why we never dated seriously, me and my walls, him and his walls. When I say it got deep it got real deep again my exes were all lessons for me and Nate was the largest lesson of them all. This time I will not lower my standards.

So Dating during a Pandemic is interesting lol. A lot of phone calls/Video chats/texting and Facebook messenger Voice memos are the shit  FYI. We dated for a couple of months before he popped the question.

What’s your credit score?

I am kidding he asked that about a couple weeks into our dating lol but he decided at the two-month mark that he was ready to be in a relationship and he had a sweet speech and my heart was putty in his hands lol. We moved fast not move in and got married fast but these were topics we discussed on a regular basis the future., living together, getting married, and having kids. I have never honestly wanted to have children until now. This is not to say that things are perfect they are not lol Now I will say this they weren’t deal-breakers the “not so honeymoon occurrences”  they allowed me to set new boundaries and for the Sigma to know I have expectations on how I want to be treated. He apologized when applicable, communicated to me, and then actually fixed whatever issue.

Well, this is new and I am officially in the twilight zone.