I always had this picture in my mind on what I thought romance was, in my mind it’s flowers it’s chocolates it’s dinner and an amazing restaurant it’s me rocking a gorgeous red dress and the night ends with some other form of surprises and of course amazing sex.

That is literally the picture perfect Valentine’s Day to me so of course my Valentine’s Day was cut extremely short because mother nature had other plans for the state of Texas. Me and the sigma had an idea that the weather wasn’t going to be as nice to have a full-blown Valentine’s Day so we kept it low-key it was still super sweet and I enjoyed my time with him it was cut short so that I could go home and not be on the roads when it started to rain. The snow storm lasted 3 days I was without power for 3 days one of the days that the power had been out for well over 24 hours at that point.

The sigma and I

talked briefly to conserve the energy on our cell phones and at this point he reached out to me to advise me that one of his friends down the street had power and was asking my permission to see if it was okay to go. I didn’t think anything of it at that point however he was asking me permission but he was already in his car on his way over, he was trying to give me a brief overview of this particular friend I was advised this was a woman that he had previously had sexual relationships with had never been in a relationship and he was trying to do his very best to advise me that she was only a friend and nothing more.

This is the thing I’m not knowledgeable to have an understanding about friends of the opposite sex

all of my ex’s are exes for a reason and not for nothing they weren’t too great at being boyfriends so I wasn’t particularly keen on keeping them around as friends. This is where he and I differ extremely once having a conversation about it I began to realize that any woman that he had previously had sex with and they were still amicable afterwards this person was noted and called a friend. Also something him and I differ about I’m not particularly too found of using the term friend loosely I didn’t understand what was the whole reasoning behind him keeping all these women in his life.

 I know I’m supposed to be this super secure

super confident self-esteem intact Kind of woman but at this point it really wasn’t about me being insecure and more so about if he honestly really respected me. Because what kind of man would put himself in a predicament where it would be cause for any sort of temptation? He didn’t stay at her home very long because her power ended up going out itself I was in my bed sleep he called me while he was on his way home he sounded super remorseful and more or less felt like a piece of garbage because this also ensued an argument with us.

Things were Rocky for about a few weeks

I’m not even sure how we managed to get back on the same page again but I’m going to probably more so say that it was because the both of us went to therapy again separately of course. We were fighting just about every week and it was literally always about the same thing our communication had been awful and I was getting to my point where I was getting extremely frustrated everything else is absolutely perfect this man refuses to communicate in a way that I understand him and he does things that make me question his loyalty to me as well. I expressed this to him and had advised him that I was at a point in my life where I was no longer interested in being lied to and if he had trouble  understanding this that  I had absolutely no problem with walking away from this relationship altogether.