so the movers came and the internet was set up in the new place (still no boxes 4 hours later lol) and everything was unpacked and the apartment was saved. So the night prior to Nate was not answering his phone and it was still going straight to Voicemail up until about 10 am. I called when I had a moment throughout the day and it was just ringing I text him still no response. Let’s be honest I did mentally prepare myself for this sort of incident and even told myself when I moved into this new place it will be as a single woman because of his behavior about the apartment.
The lack of communication his emotions his drama in his life and the simple fact that as of a few weeks prior I wasn’t getting what I wanted from this man and he would toss me scraps and be offended when I wasn’t fawning over hin providing the bare minimum. The big difference between this time and the other is that I was not prepared to let Nate go even when I did at that moment my body reacted, I cried as fucked up as everything was with him before I was not ready to part from him. Honestly, right now I would be okay with it and I know my life would thrive much better if he walked away as well. I do however feel sorry for the current state of his life and I know he’s scared (totally get how that’s not my problem) but right now things are crazy as fuck in the world with this pandemic and to have that go on to be furloughed and then not feeling adequate as a man and as an adult to ensure you are making the right choices in life I can only imagine the toll that can take on someone.
I really wanted it to work and I am not even sure if he does talk to me if it’s even remotely redeemable which is unfortunate because all this could have been resolved with a simple pickup of the phone sadly it’s just that easy.
